the end

there's a reason i let go of you. to make me stronger. for now i have to live my life without you. maybe one day i'll be able to let you in again, but pushing you out was hard enough. letting you in right now might be harder. i'm not willing to try yet. you put me through a year and a half of bullshit. lies. cheating. abuse. screaming. bleeding. and overall pain. physically and emotionally. you convinced me i'd be stronger if i held on for just a little bit longer, but when i let go i realized that you were completely wrong. because when i let go i found me, and i didnt know who i was. i knew who you were and who you convinced me i was. but finding the real me has been an adventure i'm never going to forget or regret. in the end i thank you for putting me through so much because it taught me many lessons. please don't mistake that for me forgiving you or forgetting you. i still hate you. but hating you made me love me.