"Hey, Wentz!!" "...I'm a Moore..."

People are ridiculous.
There's a girl in my school who's having a baby next month.
She's 15.

but on to another subject...the only one that truely interests me anymore. el fall out boy-o. last night my dad got really pissed off and walked out of my room, forcefully slamming the door so that the entire house shook. i was scared and pissed off. i locked my door and just sat there crying. two of my walls are almost completely covered in stuff i've gotten at fall out boy shows or really just anything relating to fall out boy. i turned up EOWYG as loud as i possibly could and just sat there staring at the pictures. those boys, no-fuck that, those four amazing people have come so far in what seems like such a short amount of time. and i'm so damn proud of them.

yeah i spend a lot of nights up in my room crying because i miss when all i had to do to see pete was walk outside of my front door, stare across forest avenue, and think "that kid is going places". but in the end all i really want is for him to be happy. no one, except for hayley, really knows that i've looked up to him since even before FOB was in the old crappy van. haha. and maybe its better that no one knows. but sometimes it kinda hurts that he doesnt know. i tried to tell him november 11th but my emotions got the best of me and i just couldnt.

in first period i was told to write a letter to the person who made me who i am today...here is what i wrote...i actually wrote two of them.

Dear Peter Wentz,
Days, hours, and minutes go by and most of them are spent thinking about how I never got the chance to say "hello, my name is Amelia". So here it is. Hello, my name is Amelia and all I've ever really wanted to do was get to know you for who you are. I never got that chance. I lived by you [Forest Avenue, FTW!] and I could've taken that chance but I didnt, and I regret that. Because over the years I've seen you get more and more popular and I've seen any chance I had of getting to know you go to waste. You'll never read this, and I'm almost okay with that. You'll never remember me, and I'm not okay with that. But maybe I have to be...You're the only person I have ever truely looked up to. As awkward and unrealistic as it sounds, you're the reason I am who I am today. And I'm pretty happy with who I am today. So i can't thank you enough for everything you've done and haven't done for me. It's all made me...me. Thank you.
Love,
Amelia

Dear Fall Out Boy,
Lately your music is the only thing that keeps me breathing and smiling. Through all the shit that has been going on in the past two months, you've been there. Not physically, but through the speakers. Every beat that forces itself out of my speakers has made this life worthwhile. I've finally got something to really believe in, and it's you. Do me a favor and have the time of your lives being super-amazing rockstars. That's almost all that I want. Patrick, you're the reason I sing and the reason I try so hard. You're such a cool guy. I dont even know how to explain how much I look up to you. By the way, you give the best hugs EVER so dont change that anytime soon. Andy, you absolutely amaze me. Your solo at HCT blew me away. I wanted to cry. [Technically, I already was. But you get the point, right? Haha.] Joe, I don't know how you do it. I could be having the worst day of my life and somehow you'd still find a way to make me smile. Pete, I already wrote you a letter. What more do you want? Haha. Kidding! But seriously. You guys are the reason I'm still living, and I know you probably hear that a lot but in my case it's really deep. Nothing makes me special but when you got me on stage at HCT, then when Pete got me into meet and greet at YWT, i felt special for the first time in my life. I really want to thank you. For everything.
Love,
Amelia

It may never mean anything to them but it means something to me.
Goodnight.