missing you?

no. i dont miss who you used to be. you have no idea how happy i am for you right now. ive waited a while to be able to look at you and think something other than, "it wouldn't kill him to smile once in a while..." and you have the nerve to fucking say that it never mattered. and don't even try to back it up this time. because dammit i've waited a long time to be able to say this...i fucking idolize you. for everything you really are. for everything you are now that you weren't before. you think we all just want you in a ditch, don't you? we want you to talk about how much you hate yourself? right. totally. because no one actually sees the emotion behind that, "i'm an asshole" front. i cant believe you this time. I really cant.