*sigh*

there's so much i wish i could say to him.
he's absolutely amazing.
i can't be down when he's around.
cause everything he says
is another reason to smile.
he may never know.
and i'm not okay with that.
it hurts...a lot.
but i can't tell him.
i'm scared. cause he'll just leave.
and again i'll be all alone.
[this has nothing to do with what you think.]
"Here I am with my heart in my hands,
praying you'll take what's left of me,
and make me feel alive again.
Here you are with your head in the clouds,
missing my signals as I scream them out.
Could you take the pain away?
Each day, just another headache.
Another match begging to be lit.
Telling me to run away.

But you could take it all away.
The headaches and this pain.
And you could take it all away.
Please stay just one more day."