picture me standing on stage in front of 10,000 plus people shaking as I play the past few years of my life on a giant screen in my head. every time i tried to reach you to tell you i'm still here. every time i tried to get you to pay attention to the only part of my life that seems real anymore. and you let it all go. except for one thing. picture me standing on that stage shaking, ready to cry, looking as if i'd just been in a bad accident or something. now imagine the thoughts inside my head. confusion. pain. fright. nervousness. now close your eyes and imagine that you are me at that moment. the guy you've looked up to since you were five years old has finally noticed you. he's staring at you, asking what's wrong. you respond with "what?" and he responds in the same way, shaking his head and laughing. then he gives you a smile and the next thing you know you're pulled on stage, standing in front of 10,000 plus people and you cant help but wonder if he remembers you. open your eyes.
this is what you've done for me.
i cant thank you enough.
now think about standing outside of some tour buses. do you remember the little girl that came to you almost crying? november 11th in fairfax virginia. you looked at me as if you knew who I was. when you asked me to come to the meet and greet I wanted to collapse in front of you and spill everything i have been dying to say. you gave me a second chance. you made me think that you knew. when i tried to talk to you at the meet and greet i didnt have enough time to explain the past 10 years. i didnt have time to even ask if you remembered me. now that little girl is hanging on for dear life, clutching the pictures of you and her. she's crying and realizing that the only thing holding her together is the hope that one day you'll look at her and say, "Yes. I remember you." then call her and let her spill her outrageous stories to you. and the hope that one day you might actually care.
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