wanna be there for you...

because no one was ever there for me.

there's a ring around my finger that says "you're never leaving this town." but theres a symbol dangling around my neck that says i have to. i dont want to stay here forever and i wont.
dear wilmette, illinois.
I'm coming home. Whether you like it or not.
March 2008 <3
love,
me

this symbol [a bat, heart, and skull fused together into one beautiful masterpiece] is almost what i have based my life on. the accomplishments that lie in this one piece alone make me want to be just like the guy who made it all happen. but then there are times when i look at it and think about how ive spent the last few years trying to reach this guy, and he hasnt seen one bit of my effort. he hasnt looked at me and said, "dont i know you from somewhere?" because he and i both know that he does. or maybe only i know. maybe he really is stuck in oblivion having the time of his life while i sit here ready to scream everytime he just passes through. or maybe he's ignoring it all for a reason. maybe its like becky said, he doesnt want to ruin what's been going on lately. but he wouldnt and he doesnt see that. he wouldnt ruin a damn thing. he'd only help us.

do me a favor and make this year worth my time...you've still got a few more days to turn 2007 into something positive. sure there were a few ups and they made up for a lot of who i am right now. but there were more downs and those impacted me to the point where i'm not who i used to be. i'm not teenage trash anymore and you better believe that i'm damn proud of it. but those downs have made 2007 a total bag of shit. you've got a few more days to make it worth the stress. you've got a few more days to change my mind...