save it for sunday

i got an amazing chance that most girls can only dream of. i've been given so many opportunities to look him in the eye and tell him everything i feel but i've blown them all away. sometimes its hard for me to face myself in the mirror because i begin to think about how he's given me so many chances and i just havent seen them because i havent been looking for them. then i think about how i feel as if i've let him down by doing this. when he asked me to come talk to him at meet and greet i blanked and didnt know what to say. he went out of his way to give one random 15 year old girl a chance, and she blew it...why does he even bother? she may never be worth his time.